Thursday 27th August
Long time no write again and this is just a quicky! It has mostly been a lovely month of socializing and holidaying with Rosa largely on great form. Hatfield now feels like an age ago but mostly went great it had some really tough moments but nothing we hadn't expected, the main trouble was who and how to tell folks. Not so much what to say but judging peoples reactions and dealing with them. Mostly people were lovely. I did find myself saying the words a lot, there were some people that I really wanted to tell and couldn't find the moment or how to begin and some who I didn't know from Adam who asked me a direct question and got a more direct answer than they might have expected. On the whole I think it was good in a way to get a bit desensitised to telling people where we are, I think that has to be a good thing but it didn't always feel like it. Aside from the emotional stuff we sold enough pots, lots of public came, we didn't get washed away and Rosa coped mostly really well, luckily she really does enjoy camping! Especially good as we were only home for a few days before we went off again.
The Monday we were back from Hatfield we did have an appointment with a gynaecologist in Barnstaple as a first step to finding out what our options are as regards having the rest of our family. Actually we received the first bit of good news it felt like for ages, it turns out there is another test that we can have (CVS chorionic villus sampling) at a much earlier stage of pregnancy than we had been led to believe, still not ideal but does change everything a bit. We wait to find out more but think it is probably the way we will go because all the other options seem less acceptable. If we do go for that option I have to convince myself that our odds are good and we have used up our bad luck now. I am very aware that it doesn't work that way but I have to try and banish my fear and doubts in any way I can because I didn't have any before and now they are huge.
Anyway off for another lovely weekend I think so I will post this and write more soon. All goes as well as it could and we are all still muddling through.